first blog in about 1000 years

i've got alot of feelings today, and i haven't blogged in a really long time.
i can't sleep. i'm in a really bad mood, when really, there's nothing to be upset about.

i liked this guy for ages, and somehow, like some heavenly bloody blessing, he likes me too, and we are now going out with each other.. and i've seen him every day for about three weeks :)
the problem is though, and i always used to discuss this with dan, when you really like someone, and you finally get them, the mysterious-ness is gone, and you can see all their flaws aswell.
but yeah, whatever.

i'm really annoyed at the human race at this current moment in time. my dear friend ashlyn hasn't been treated very nicely this evening and it really gets on my tits how humans are such selfish, arrogant dickheads.
why is it that is pains some people to let others be happy?
why do people have to stir and gossip?
grr. get high, chill out and laugh for god's sake.

somehow, i've managed to completely fall for my boyfriend in two weeks.
i refuse to believe it, cause i didn't even think it was possible.. but i feel so strongly for him, he's all i can think about, he's the only person i ever wanna see, and i'm always craving him.
he's moving away in the summer..
that's gonna tear me apart, i know it.

right now, i want enter shikari playing live in my bedroom, ash (: , some doughnuts and cuddles and kisses.
oh. and a new flipping phone. my phone's older than me, i swear. you can't even charge it without having to turn it off... look at me rambling on.

i wanna do some covers soon, skinny love and mr brightside i think..
i wish i could play guitar.
maybe i'll learn that, when i have money for lessons -_-

i'd like to know why it is that everytime i have a bath, i feel like i've been stabbed in the stomach..
my doctor tells me not to have bubble baths because i only have one kidney. now that just seems ridonkulous. fair enough, avoiding risks, but what the actual fuck?
... but, if anyone knows what this tummy thing's about, lemme know ;]

right, i think bedtime is what time it is.
i'm gonna stop with the 'goodbye hebrews and shebrews b'
i'll go with a simple: goodnight bloggers, much love xo