i made a postsecret.

This is really depressing.
I feel I should explain.
I'd been thinking about this boy that I liked for about a year..
and just wondering what would have happened if I would have kissed him when I had the chance.
I'm glad I didn't, but I just wonder what if...
you know.

Well anyways, the night I nearly kissed him was at a superheroes party.
I had liked him for eight months at this point and it was the night before my birthday; 20-02-94.
He was dressed as Batman; I was dressed as Batgirl. Ironic eeh?

today.

it rained all day today.
i freaking love rain.
shame noone else does :/

my week so far;
monday.. watched charlie skate (:
alot funner than it sounds cause he is wicked (Y)
tuesday.. pricey's and town (:
it was a really dreary day but it was nice company..
apart from walking home, where it was scary and i cut my finger on a leaf.. WHICH REALLY HURTS!
wednesday.. stayed in, did some more to my picture of everyone (L) sorted out my music.. dull. lovely lazy day, talked to charlie and pricey.. then hannah popped in and we got perfec' pizza and cookie dough ice creeaaam (:
now she's fallen asleep in my ever so comfy double bed ;p

the rest of the week;
thursday.. MADDIE. missed her more than anything tbh.. lots of gossip to catch up on and whatnot. that'll be larverly!
friday.. PARTAYPARTAYPARTAY. cannay' wait.. it's gonna be a goodunn i think, and hope (L)

this summer holidays has been really really good (Y)
can only get better aswell, what with dublin and new york.

goodbye hebrews and shebrews b

gap in the fence (:

I lie here

Staring up at the stratosphere

And hoping we're

Gonna get out of here

It seems mad

That we're all born on the doorstep

Of squalor and of pedestals

And I lie here

Surrounded by a range of general anesthetics

To drowse the fact

That funding in 'security'

Is not matched by spreading equality

You'll hear us singing...

In the sunlight where you caught us

Plotting the downfall of hoarders

Every gap in the fence

We'll peek, we'll scratch, we'll stretch, we'll grab anything we can.

But if we grouped together

And made a bigger hole

Not just for our childrens hands

But for bigger plans

Cos I don't know about you

But I've gotta get out of here

We live so subserviently

Accepting all normality

Drenched with routine

Doused in the foreseen

And yes, granted we do prosper.

But the fact that we prosper

Is even taken for granted.

the prettiest enter shikari song; in world

i was reading ashlyn's blog and she said something really pretty..

Dan writes his poetry.

Jack writes his heart.

Michelle writes her feelings.

Becky writes her mind.

it's very true. i'm good at writing utter nonsense.. cause that's what my mind/life is.

to be honest i wouldn't want it any other way.

Sunday today.

Sundays are useless.

my best friend is having a blazing row with her boyfriend and i can't seem to say the right things..

it will really be a shame if they break up.

but life goes on.

cba to go out.

i've turned into the laziest teenager ever.

it's all these late nights, but then again i've always preferred nights.

all the good things happen at night,

you can get drunk and dance and sing down the street (L)

that's never as good in the day.

you can snuggle up in bed and kiss someone gorgeous.

that's never as good in the day.

you can watch the stars.

that's never as good in the day.. ;)

well here goes another week of summer holidays..

dunno what i shall do, said i'd see climo tomorrow,

sophie tuesday,

probably amy dom and pricey at some point..

MADDIE WHEN SHE GETS BACK.

although she text saying she's really ill which worries the shit out of me :( :(

party on friday.

dublin on sunday..

i hope nothing changes whilst i'm away.

probably will though :/

goodbye hebrews and shebrews b

dang' it's been a while since i wrote on here..

much has changed.
things are sooooo much better :)

i was with a boy.
he was a knob, cheated on me..
broke up with me.
he's gone ;)

now i know a guy who three weeks ago i thought just looked nice :)
and now i see him quite alot and it's going good..
slowly, but good.

i haven't seen very much of some of my good friends,
i guess this kinda sucks, but i think i'm moving on :)
i've spent more time with a different crowd lately,
who really look after me and don't put me down.
for now, i am happy.

i have a party on friday, that should be good (Y)
this time in two weeks i will be in new york.
this time in one week i will be getting ready to go to dublin to see my daddy :)

i'm so happy :D:D:D:D

goodbye hebrews and shebrews b

i'm a messssssssssssssss

lalalaaaa do not know what to say :/:/

talked to someone last night who is like my own psychologist tbh..

we discussed taking down *a shield* :L

tbh i don't really understand..

you know when you think so hard about yourself that you get really confused and you feel like you're gonna explode? well that happened and i'm sat in this strange daze with not alot to say or do. something about my childhood... lol i don't really understand. ummmmmm? i'm afraid to cry in front of people so i was told just to let go so that's what i'll do.

i'll voice my opinion, and not just the ones people should hear.. i'll say things i should never say!

who knows..

goodbye hebrews and shebrews b

i'm single again :(
i'm sat in a practice room in music bored out of my face...
all goooood :)

hey but i like being single!
there are PLENTY more fish in the sea tbh..

i'll be happy one day.

my mum's winding me up also. :/


i'm happy no matter what. i'm lucky tbh, i'm not homeless.. i have a family and AMAZING friends.
always look on the bright side of life. that is the motto i live by..
goodbye hebrews & shebrews. b

Whoah happy day $Y

ERJT <THIS IS MY LITTLE LAND ;)

I'M GOING IN TOWN WITH ROSEMARIE SOON TO GET MY MOTHER'S PRESENT AND PICK UP MADDIE'S PRESENT AND LOOK AT PRETTY DRESSES. GOOD TIMES.

NEARLY THE END OF THE HALF TERM. WELL THAT SUCKS. IT'S BEEN ACE THOUGH, GOT TO SEE THE NEPHEW AND DO FUN STUFFS. :)

GOODBYE HEBREWS & SHEBREWS. b