i'm a messssssssssssssss

lalalaaaa do not know what to say :/:/

talked to someone last night who is like my own psychologist tbh..

we discussed taking down *a shield* :L

tbh i don't really understand..

you know when you think so hard about yourself that you get really confused and you feel like you're gonna explode? well that happened and i'm sat in this strange daze with not alot to say or do. something about my childhood... lol i don't really understand. ummmmmm? i'm afraid to cry in front of people so i was told just to let go so that's what i'll do.

i'll voice my opinion, and not just the ones people should hear.. i'll say things i should never say!

who knows..

goodbye hebrews and shebrews b

i'm single again :(
i'm sat in a practice room in music bored out of my face...
all goooood :)

hey but i like being single!
there are PLENTY more fish in the sea tbh..

i'll be happy one day.

my mum's winding me up also. :/


i'm happy no matter what. i'm lucky tbh, i'm not homeless.. i have a family and AMAZING friends.
always look on the bright side of life. that is the motto i live by..
goodbye hebrews & shebrews. b

Whoah happy day $Y

ERJT <THIS IS MY LITTLE LAND ;)

I'M GOING IN TOWN WITH ROSEMARIE SOON TO GET MY MOTHER'S PRESENT AND PICK UP MADDIE'S PRESENT AND LOOK AT PRETTY DRESSES. GOOD TIMES.

NEARLY THE END OF THE HALF TERM. WELL THAT SUCKS. IT'S BEEN ACE THOUGH, GOT TO SEE THE NEPHEW AND DO FUN STUFFS. :)

GOODBYE HEBREWS & SHEBREWS. b

sunburn.

i went camping on the moors :)
i hit my head so hard on a rock that it jolted down my spine, i couldn't see properly and i went into shock.
i am so badly sunburnt that i screamed in the bath and i can't wear tops the right way..
i had such an ace time (:
we made a big fire and drank lots and climbed big rocks :L
and we watched the sunset and the magnificent stars and the sunrise.. good times tbh

i'm going to london tomorrow to see my brother, his wife and their baby dylan :)
it'll be goooooooooooood me thinks..

happy happy happy
goodbye hebrews & shebrews b

i think i might hang myself tbh. :/

holly text me saying *these things come in threes, my friend just hung herself, who's next?*
my auntie hung herself last week.
you can imagine how depressed i've become..
i text back saying *me if this day gets any worse*
alot of things to make me angry
i haven't seen jack in a week.
my face is a mess.
my whole image is a mess.
i got really depressed yesterday by a pretty song and a few people.
i had nothing to do today.
i have a maths test on monday.
i feel fat and ugly.
i want to move far far away.
i wish i could play guitar.
i wish my dad was closer and i saw him more than one week every year.
i wish my brother was closer.
i wish i was an amazing singer.
i wish i was an amazing ballet dancer.
i hate plymouth.


on a much brighter note, eurovision song contest is bloody hilarious.. and i'm seeing jack tomorrow :) goodbye hebrews & shebrews b

& another thing..

why has every girl in my year now decided to start a blog? gohh i swear they're like sheep. i do hate it when people copy..b

even the heartbreak, even the way we made mistakes..

s a t u r d a y. 15:24, still in bed. nothing to get up for.. can't be bothered with anything. crap day. yesterday someone very very important to me played me a song that he thought was pretty by our favourite band. it was called lua by bright eyes. i remember last year,when we liked each other alot, he sent me a song called first day of my life by bright eyes and i sent him a song called technicolor eyes by backseat goodbye on the same day. He reminded me of this yesterday and it really depressed me... it made me realise how as soon as he moved on and found a girlfriend (who is just too nice tbh) i was kinda forced to do the same. :/ so now here i am, three weeks with a boy named jack, he has no idea i think all this.. cause i barely see him tbh. and i'm seeing this other boy every day and i know it's best not to but i can't stay away.
i have a songbook which is currently in my schoolbag. every single song is about that boy that is very very important to me.. i get by by hoping that one day he'll realise. knowing my luck, probably not.... goodbye hebrews & shebrews xxx